you should be proud...

Im proud!

Driving lessons are going well, i feel more confident in the whole driving situation and i just got reverse parallel parking in under 10 minutes. how good is that, good I hope!

And I almost... ALMOST have a functional bike.

and Im watching glee, coz why wouldn't you watch glee at 9.30 in the morning.

Its Christmas

am, 1:50, December 25. Christmas Day

After a hideous week at work, with big sales and so on and so forth. I look forward to my two days off. So, I started it with a cup of tea, for one... still cant work out if its incredibly lonely, or the most joyful thing in the world. When I work it out, I am sure I will let you know.


And then I finally decided to make more gingerbread cookies, they almost were massive fail, but I worked it out in the end, they dont taste as good as the first lot, but they look prettier, and isnt that what its all about?


The one with the silver balls on it, thats the perfect one. I wanted to keep it separate, more unique than the others, just so i would remember.




And the night before last, I managed to make a snow man on animal crossing, he will be melted now, but he seemed happy, he wanted a lovely snowgirlfriend, but I didnt make him one in time. Oh well, Im sure he will be happy in his new found puddle.

Earlier this week there was snow where my love is, It would have been wonderful to be there, but I can't be, so this christmas my body will be here, but my mind and my heart will be in the cold, wet and maybe snowy, north of the world.

until next time.
Merry Christmas everybody...
Im off to enjoy White Christmas. :)

just so you know

same here

Dear neighbour

Could you please make your dog stop barking. I don't care how you do it, you can feed it, you can play with it, you can take it for a walk, heck, you can take it to the RSPCA and let some friendly man on a farm far away from anyone else, especially me, adopt it. That would be lovely.

Sleep would also be lovely, wouldn't it, I don't know if you got any last night, but I can tell you I didn't, simply because your dog was barking all night. OH THATS RIGHT, YOU HAVE ROLLER SHUTTERS DON'T YOU.

Look, I liked the previous family that lived in your house, their dog was awesome, and quiet, your dog isn't awesome and is not quiet, it is loud and messy and already has destroyed the lovely backyard that they made.


If you can not make your dog stop barking, I will make a complaint.

Thank you.
Your pissed off neighbour.
Miffy

i think its starting to happen...

It's all going to work out ok, I think.

But I'll get back to you when I am certain.

see, im trying.

Today it's hot. But, I wanted to make gingerbread cookies. So when I got back from my driving lesson, I started to make cookies.
Butter, Sugar, check... so i start to mix that... and then go hunting for the eggs, which i could have sworn were in the fridge, but NOOOOO.

So, I have to walk to the shops to get eggs.

And then I made a big mess like I usually do when I bake, still havent cleaned it up...
Couldn't remember if i had put one or two cups of flour, so spent the 10 minutes of baking time thinking i wont actually have cookies at the end of this ordeal. but no, they worked just fine and taste quite lovely.

So, my attempt at getting into the christmas spirit looks like its working on the outside, but if you ask me, its failing miserably, why does it have to be so hot. I have so many lovely christmassy jumpers, and i just cant wear them in 40 degree heat.

UGH. bring on winter.... its only 6 months away...

christmas is here again...

apparently.

Today I put my christmas tree up. It wasn't the lovely experience it used to be, beginning of December, excitement plus.
No, it was me, bored at home alone watching Fraser.


The lights don't work, and there was only one decent piece of tinsel. So, oh well

Today I should...

Today I should be sewing.
But instead I am reading blogs.

Today I should be thinking about patterns.
But instead I am thinking about ways to take photographs.

I really should decide to do something and stop listening to bad music.

We've gone as far as we can go without crashing

The Swell Season are playing on the music box, the sewing machine is switched on, and the half altered clothes are sitting waiting to be altered... So why am I here.

I want to do something, which involved sewing and selling, but I'm waiting for something, I don't know what I am waiting for, can you tell me?
Or even better, you can make it happen!

No, I know, I have to do it all myself. I've learnt in life that things don't get handed to you on a platter... unless you have really ridiculously rich parents that will give you anything you want... I don't have these, so I have learned to work for what I need... shame I'm so lazy. BUT ALAS, THIS MUST BE DONE.

I hope what ever I am waiting for happens soon, because I'm getting a bit tired of doing nothing.

If everything goes the way its playing out in my head, my life will work right... I think!

I wish nan was sitting next to me telling me what to do next.

where

Dear Prudence

I'll run out of things to say tomorrow, but if I don't write this today, I'll forget about it.

Prudence, by someone who is not me...

She thought that trouble was coming
so hid away
and locked the door of her heart
against the light of day

At dusk she ventured- "What happened?"
A neighbour mocked:
"Joy passed by you at the height of noon-
Your door was locked."

Its all about the biteys

The Vampire Diaries doesn't look good on my tiny television.

Once again, I will have to take the big tv for my personal viewing.

Why am I posting this here... because I don't want to tell facebook, or twitter, but I had to tell someone. And once figuring that no one actually comes here, i realise its a safe place.

I can't help it if Vampire love is so addicting!

The return of socialism... i mean, society

I went out this weekend, and had a jolly good time. Makes me remember that yes, I do have friends who are indeed willing to spend time with me, and sing songs with me, and dance like fools with me. I also have friends who will help me and my family and know what to do when things get tricky. Also, ones who know just what I want without having to ask.

This is what makes life good, and I remember that now.

Change makes life exciting.

Mr Darcy makes... drool.


Sleep makes lovely.
When I wake up, I promise myself that I will finish knitting, and then I might look up some singing/acting classes.

It doesn't seem to be getting any easier

It's all getting harder

Path shmath

thinking of a change of future...

Interestingly forever day

I vacuumed my vinyl, oh yeah.

Which lead on to making everything in my room sit right, then decided that my bed side table didnt want to be black any more, it wants to be green, so off with the black contact, and also it deserves a shelf instead of just being a big box, so off with the coating on another piece of wood...

Then the sanding, then the hammering, then the painting....

currently have a green box sitting on the balcony... still need to cut 'shelf' to size etc.
Could be interesting...

helpless?

feeling rather trapped right now

Odd day

Today is weird. Theres no doubting that. I was woken too early by mum getting ready for work, then my alarm, then dad getting ready for work. I really wish we had carpet instead of wood.

Even after I had opened my curtains, I still couldn't see into the corner of my room where my clothes were, the sun was somewhere behind the clouds, which today seem lower than normal.

I can see to the hills which are covered, only half visible through a mass of clouds which are low enough to keep them hidden. Usually they would have cleared up by now, it's often only during the early morning before the sun comes up that they're engulfed in cloud. Today I think its getting heavier.

There is also a dog down the street which won't stop howling or whining. It sounds very sad. It puts an edge to this day. Buster seems very depressed too. Never a good thing.

I hope this day doesnt get any weirder.

7:02

7:02, home.

Pyjamas and nanna cardigan, even got my glasses on.
Came home from work and refused anything more.

Totally content with reading a book whilst watching a movie.

I wont tell you what I am reading. You can work that one out yourself.

And I wont tell you what I am watching, You will probably hit me.


I hope you all enjoy your night out, drinking and dancing and making utter fools of yourselves.

Have fun

Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens

Brown paper packages tied up with strings

these are a few of my favourite things...


thank you, I can now process film at home
de-lazy time


But first... scones

WEEEEEEEEEEE

CARLYLES BAND (HUMBLEBEE) are opening for The Lucksmiths
this makes me a happy person
I can't imagine how carly is feeling at the moment.

Check out humblebee.
www.humblebee.com.au

they have more musicians involved now too. which makes life more impressive all round
YEY FOR THE AWESOMENESS

thats all there is to say

Saturday nights alright for fighting

Come saturday, my family and I are off to Perth for the 2 week holiday that has been in preparation for approximately 2 years now.

From now on, everything that happens to me will be "when i come back from perth"

So. When I come back from Perth, i will make sure that i start driving lessons.
When I come back from Perth, I will make an inventory of all my camera gear so I can see if its all worth anything.
When I come back from Perth Ill actually try make some savings happen (though this may not be totally possible as two weeks after my return i run away to victor for a couple of days with the swede and the camera man)

Anyway. I think thats all. I just had to put it out there about the camera gear so that i would remember when i return. brilliant.



also. when i return from perth, i will win a game of chess against the computer, not just against a boy who has never played chess before.

ch-ch-ch changes

everything is changing

and im going to let it

vroom vroom

I got a car, I got a big black(but its really actually white and not THAT big, just normal sized) shiny (and i cant guarantee that its that shiny, i did wash it though) car.

Temporary Insanity

I dreamt about Elvis Costello playing the organ for tango music at my dance school.
I don't like my neighbours coz maybe theyre just a little too happy with their little children... and i hear them being happy.
I think that many of my thoughts on things might just change soon.

So close

So very close to getting everything in order the way it should be..



wish me luck

and were back

sometimes i try to draw

attempt at myself in the car at christmas

off the top of my head.

bored on the train. just amusement

a memory

New Years eve

thanks for the advice...
So, for the 2008-2009 new years eve, i lost my boyfriend to the lovely city of melbourne, and decided to go to spend it in victor harbour, but not for the party in victor harbour, just to spend a relaxing few days with my nan and pop.


relaxing sometimes is stressful.

So come midnight, i find myself sitting on the couch, watching the television, sydney and melbournes fireworks displays and all their partying. I think i was already in pyjamas, if not trackies. and I just sat there and drew ((terrible at drawing but i try))

I also found myself writing. I havent re-read what i wrote, just took photographs and put them on here. I dont even know if its legible. But who cares.


anyway. Ive lost this blog.

Farewell for the next 10 minutes

oh my

how dreams have changed